Scooter and the Big Man busted this city in half last night

Last night was my second time seeing Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band, but it felt like the first time I really saw them as The E Street band. I saw them for the first time on The Rising tour which was great, but this time it seemed more like it was Bruce and His boys (and a girl)! More like a glorified bar band! Fantastic!

Getting to see him singing his version of Because The Night was so cool! I love that song and never really thought I'd ever get a chance to hear him doing it. And She's The One is always a great song!

It was funny, before the show, my two brothers, sister and sister-in-law (this was her first concert EVER) we were sitting in a bar talking about what songs we wanted to hear. Mine was Rosalita, and Mary said that Point Blank was the one going through her head. He had done Rosalita a few times on this tour, but not very often. I think two times before and hadn't done Point Blank at all. My brother kinda laughed and said (about that song) "Well, you never know, but I don't think he's doing that song anymore". Guess what songs he sang. Point Blank was a beautiful version!

He also did 10th Avenue Freeze Out which we weren't expecting because that new song Livin' In The Future kinda sounds a bit like it. I love the new song and accepted that I might just have to only get that one, but then he does 10th Ave during the encore!

Sheesh! I am just still really excited about that show!

We couldn't have been higher up, but thankfully, my brother lent me his binoculars (which I've never used at a rock show before) and so I got to see Clarence Clemmons sitting in his giant gold chair which even with my new glasses would not have been able to notice without the binocs!

I feel like such a nerd! After the show I went up to the bar to see S. while he was working. He knows that if I am excited about someone especially Bruce, that he should feign the same excitement so that I don't feel so nerdy. However, I was a bit TOO excited this time and most of the people who are "too cool to like bruce" were doing a lot of smiling and nodding so I just decided to go home and tell the kidda all about the show instead.

Still lonely.

Jeez! This sucks. Here I am in a good relationship for the most part, except for the fact that I am so lonely.
Would it be wrong to go online and try to meet someone to go do stuff with? Like, Steve can be my boyfriend, but I'd have a play friend. And not in the sexual way, just someone to go play darts with or go to the zoo with or something like that. Is that icky?

Then, on a lighter note.

I LOVE Daiso Japan!!!!!!



Okay, besides the fact that that they have tons and tons of stuff for under 8 bucks, but mostly $1.50, they have so many tools to make my resin stuff easier!!!!! I got several grinders and sand paper wheel things (see how good I am at tool talk?) that fit onto my cordless drill, so I can do stuff in 5 minutes that used to take me an hour!!! Huzzah!!!!!

Plus, I bought a pair of sponges that look like egg sandwiches! A buck fifty!!!!



I know they have a bunch of them on the West Coast, I don't know if you Easterners are as lucky, but I sure hope so! This is the best place!!! I only just discovered it a few months ago, but make a trip there every Sunday after payday!

Alone together.

I have never had to deal with someone else's depression to such a degree before. I don't think I'm any good at it. In fact, I think I suck at it and make things worse.
I want to be supportive, and think I am trying, but seem to always say the wrong things, or say them the wrong way. Sometimes, I feel like apologizing for asking how his day was, or how he's feeling. I wish I could figure it out.
He's been working for the past few days, but comes home really tired and I am supposed to cater to him or something. Well, as much as I'd love to help, I too work a lot. And hard! I get really tired after being on my feet on concrete for 8.5 hours! Maybe I want to be catered to?

I don't want to sound sexist, but has anyone else noticed that men are pretty fucking delicate? When he is sore, it's like the end of the world! When I am sore, I will say "ow" if I move funny, but I am still a friendly person. I just buck up and tough it out. I've noticed this in other men I've been around too, so I don't think it's just him. But JEEZ, we're old! We are gonna hurt a lot more often now!

But anyway, back to his being depressed. How do you keep believing that the person loves you when they don't touch you hardly ever let alone even look at you? If I feel insecure about it and say something, he gets upset and defensive. Yeah, that makes me feel MUCH more secure, doesn't it? What am I supposed to do? Just blindly believe? What if he IS getting sick of me? Do I just end up humiliated? Fuck. I hate this.

I want a handbook on how to live with and stay in love with a depressed person!!!!

Seattle, if I didn't love you, I'd hate you!

One of my favorite buildings came down today. Actually, it's coming down while I type this. I guess they waited so I'd get to see it happening. Heh.
I was certain that it'd been saved! I swear I read that they were not going to tear down the Frederick and Nelson's Stables, built in the later part of the 1800s. Apparently, only the facade will remain. At least that's something.
I am getting so tired of the way this city knocks down anything remotely cool. It all just makes me sad.



This whole neighborhood is making me sad. Sure, I am benefiting from some of it. More places to eat and drink, but so many of the buildings that I have loved over the years are disappearing.
And don't get me started on the SLUT. The name is the only good thing about it. My "low income rent" is starting to not seem so because our property taxes have been raised to pay for this thing that makes no sense for me to even use! It takes me 10 minutes to walk to work. Were I to take the SLUT, it would take me 20 minutes. Why am I paying for this thing? So people who work in this 'hood can go to lunch downtown? They'd better start thanking me for giving them a ride, damnit!

All of the cool houses will soon be gone soon, I'm sure. I don't want to leave the 'hood. I love it.






Thanks for letting me rant. I've no idea how much sense I am making. I'm just really sad. That Frederick and Nelson building would have made some really cool lofts. Now it's going to be Amazon. Feh.

I've added Spanish to my lessons on www.livemocha.com This is super fun! I need to get a microphone so I can practice my pronunciations!

I hate you voice of reason! You suck!

Well, poop. I do really want to go to Port Townsend, but the stupid voice of reason showed up this morning and reminded me that I still have a lot of stuff to do around the house. I still need to finish a bunch of those bracelets, take photos and get them listed on etsy. Maybe what I'll do is save up some money and make an overnight trip out of it! That would be nicer anyway.

So, about the bracelets, I really need to get my ass in gear, don't I? I have a box of almost finished ones and I keep making more. I should start asking Steve to do the finishing sanding, though I'm sure he doesn't have the confidence to do it. I can understand that. I'd be bummed if I messed up someone else's work. But if I taught him how to do it, it'd be fine. It's just too hard to get him interested in much of anything these days, though. *sigh*

I'm getting another raise this week! Because my boss is leaving for another store, it's his last gesture to thank me for helping him out so much. He's pretty sure that the new manager is too cheap with the company's money to be handing out raises (even though I should be making much more than I am!) so he's doing this for me! Hooray! I do really need it! I'm still more or less supporting two of us, and until one of S.'s jobs actually pans out, I am going to continue to do so. This raise is small, but is going to help a ton! Yay!

I need to get away, damnit!!!!

Okay, I love the fella, but sheesh, he needs to start acting like he likes me instead of just saying that he loves me. It makes a difference. He's nicer to people that he doesn't like than he is to those of us that he loves.

Anyhoo, I figure that I can't spend another day off sitting around wishing he'd want to do something. I don't know how to drive, so I'm figuring out a way to go somewhere cool using public transportation. There may be a way to go bus-ferry-bus and get to Port Townsend! I'd love to do that! I grew up spending my summers there camping at my uncle's beach and then going into town.
What was that movie that was filmed there? Oh yeah, Officer and a Gentleman. Yeah, that bar that someone in it fought in (I've never actually seen the whole movie)? I tripped on a crack out front and ate pavement in front of that bar when I was 11.

Port Townsend is a cool little town. Built in the Victorian era as the potential main port, but lost to Tacoma and for years became run down and mostly abandoned until the 1970s when hippies started moving out there to get cheap houses.

Now, it is fucking adorable! Lot's of shops and hopefully, still has the best ice cream shop in the world!!! And I LOVE Victorian architecture!!!!

Okay, so it seems that if I take the ferry to Bainbridge, then take the #90 to Poulsbo, I can then transfer to the #7 to Port Townsend. I have no idea how long it will take, or how much it's going to cost exactly, but it's looking like a round trip for under 12 bucks! Hooray!

I wish steve would come with, but I'd bet the fare that he won't. :(